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Category Archives: Connection
Yet Again
Another hospitalization under my belt. Suicidal ideation reared its head. For the fourth time in a fifteen-month span, it beckoned. This time, I managed to avoid the clique-ishness of the staff at the one hospital and the vulgarity of … Continue reading
Posted in Community, Connection, FTM, Gratititude, Hope, Hope, Mental health, Mental illness, Psych Hospitalization, Suicide, support, UU Fellowship
Tagged #ftm story, #Trans, Community, Self acceptance
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Bewildered?
Writing this in hopes of connecting. My soul’s been on disconnect for much longer than expected. Simple tasks had become behemoth; brushing my teeth, a feat of massive proportions. And I spent another five weeks searching deeper into my head … Continue reading
Posted in Community, Connection, Family, Friendship, Hope, Psych Hospitalization, Reality, sadness, superhero
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Weathering the Front
Winds whipped. Gusts beyond 60 miles per hour. Trees– tall, majestic– ripped like carrots from a backyard garden. Frozen tundra came to mind. Spaghetti-strewn wires adorned darkened, bare streets. Teeth chattered. Windows rattled. Ordinarily I’d sleep through it all. Not … Continue reading
Posted in Celebration, Community, Connection, FTM, Hope, Hope, Hormone Replacement Therapy, Mental health, Progression, Reality, Uncategorized
Tagged #acceptance, #creator, #ftm story, #God, #love, #who I am, Community, Connection, Dignity, Honesty, Out of the closet, Self acceptance
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Trans or Bi Gender
Not certain whether folks will care that I don’t want to be ‘fully’ male. The word bi freaks people out. Or the use of it. Remember the time I attempted to fit into the lesbian community as bisexual in the … Continue reading
Posted in Childhood sexual abuse, Connection, FTM, Hope, Mental health, Sex
Tagged #acceptance, #gender identity, #who I am, Bi-gender, Confidence, Connection, Self acceptance
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Transgender: A Timely Topic
As the New Year begins, I find myself yearning to write. To gather thoughts, ideas, facts and revelations; to jot them down in any form imaginable. Mostly, I write my blog following a meeting of the trans masculine group I’m … Continue reading
Posted in Community, Connection, Friendship, FTM, Hope, New Year, Poetry, Uncategorized, Writing/Groups
Tagged #God, #who I am, Bi-gender, Blessings, Honesty, Self acceptance, Trans masculine
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“Calling All Angels”
To me, the trans men that meet in my group each week are angels. Plain and simple. We are all there to learn, to express and grow as humans and we have each other’s back. Not a word that’s spoken … Continue reading
Posted in Connection, Friendship, support, Trans group, Transmen, Transwomen, Uncategorized, Writing/Groups
Tagged #love, Angels, Dialogue, Dignity, Honesty, Peace
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Living Authentically
Without question, I could overuse the word ‘connection.’ It sounds nice as it escapes my lips. It’s a feeling, not in the mind, but gut. My brain is mobbed with thoughts. None intrusive. Bonding thoughts. Like the way glue affixes to … Continue reading
Posted in Community, Connection, Family, Friendship, FTM, Hope
Tagged #acceptance, #love, #who I am, Confidence, Self acceptance
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Feeling Honored
Finally, I am getting over myself. So many strands of my personality creep in and I become annoying at best, and at its ultimate worst, stifling. My nearly non-existent self esteem causes me to judge, ridicule and throw away my … Continue reading
Posted in Community, Connection, Family, Friendship, FTM, Hope, Trans group
Tagged #acceptance, Community, Confidence, Connection, FTM, Self acceptance
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Powerful Groups
There is at least one in every crew, I’m told. The choice is whether to pay attention to or ignore the person(s) who rub me the wrong way. Lately, I’ve been able to curtail the voice of someone who vents, … Continue reading
Posted in Connection, Friendship, FTM, Hope, Mental health, Trans Identity, Writing/Groups
Tagged #acceptance, #Trans, #who I am, Out of the closet
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I’ve won! I’ve Won!
Hit the grand slam. The jackpot and the lottery all in one! My anticipation of the event rose as my good friend R, and G and I wound our way down the expressway and crept through the streets of Center … Continue reading
Posted in Connection, Friendship, FTM, support, Transmen
Tagged #acceptance, #ftm story, #love, #transgender, #who I am, Connection, fear
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