Tag Archives: #who I am

Three Strikes?

Headaches, in general, have not been a problem for me. Muscle discomfort. PMS strife. Pain following twelve hour scoliosis surgery. All familiar. The near-migraines ( have experienced those, as well) that have plagued me in the last couple of weeks … Continue reading

Posted in Celebration, Dignity, Friendship, FTM, Hope, Hormone Replacement Therapy, Testosterone, Therapy, Top Surgery | Tagged , , , , , | 10 Comments

Baby Bird

Like a little bird. How I see myself these days. In a way, I hope it won’t last because of the vulnerability factor. At the same time, it’s a reminder I have lots of growing ahead. Mental health issues sometimes … Continue reading

Posted in Dignity, Gratititude, Hope, Mental health, Pride, Progression, Psych Hospitalization, PTSD, Therapy | Tagged , , , , | 6 Comments

Weathering the Front

Winds whipped. Gusts beyond 60 miles per hour. Trees– tall, majestic– ripped like carrots from a backyard garden. Frozen tundra came to mind. Spaghetti-strewn wires adorned darkened, bare streets. Teeth chattered. Windows rattled. Ordinarily I’d sleep through it all. Not … Continue reading

Posted in Celebration, Community, Connection, FTM, Hope, Hope, Hormone Replacement Therapy, Mental health, Progression, Reality, Uncategorized | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , | 4 Comments

Half the Battle

At the last span of the dreaded whopping head cold spreading what seems the nation. It couldn’t have come at a better time. There hasn’t been a bunch of focus on the events of the past week. Till now. While … Continue reading

Posted in FTM, Gratititude, Hope, Hormone Replacement Therapy, Mental health, Reality | Tagged , , , | 6 Comments

It Snowed.

Leave it to millions that will chronicle Jonas’ impact… For the past nine months I’ve been focused, in not so much a conscious way, yet not super subconscious either, on my physical self. Take my wrinkles, for example. Many times … Continue reading

Posted in Aging, Celebration, Dignity, Gratititude, Hope, Mental health, Pride, Progression, Reality | Tagged , , , , , , | 4 Comments

Trans or Bi Gender

Not certain whether folks will care that I don’t want to be ‘fully’ male. The word bi freaks people out. Or the use of it. Remember the time  I attempted to fit into the lesbian community as bisexual in the … Continue reading

Posted in Childhood sexual abuse, Connection, FTM, Hope, Mental health, Sex | Tagged , , , , , , | 9 Comments

Transgender: A Timely Topic

As the New Year begins, I find myself yearning to write. To gather thoughts, ideas, facts and revelations; to jot them down in any form imaginable. Mostly, I write my blog following a meeting of the trans masculine group I’m … Continue reading

Posted in Community, Connection, Friendship, FTM, Hope, New Year, Poetry, Uncategorized, Writing/Groups | Tagged , , , , , , | 4 Comments

Self Progression

Last evening I watched Janet Mock on OWN T.V. She tells where she came from and embracing her ‘otherness’as a trans women/person in this challenging environment for transgender people everywhere. Janet shared her progression from her roots in Hawaii where … Continue reading

Posted in Family, Friendship, FTM, Mental health, Progression, PTSD, Trans Identity, Uncategorized | Tagged , , , , , , | 4 Comments

Christmas Past

TW: Trigger warning: Anxiety, suicidal/homicidal thoughts. >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>   This time of year nearly sends me over the edge. It’s not the season, per se. I don’t suppose it is for most of us who suffer anxiety, shame, guilt, grief, pain … Continue reading

Posted in Homocide, Panic Attacks, Suicide, Trigger Warning | Tagged , , , , , | 6 Comments

Dead Name

What is this blog about? Me? You? Is it a discussion, in fact? I can tell you what it isn’t. I’m not selling anything. Not even myself. I don’t offer a window into what is trans, even. It isn’t about … Continue reading

Posted in Dead Naming, Gender Markers, Reality, support, Uncategorized | Tagged , , , , , | 10 Comments