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Yet Again
Another hospitalization under my belt. Suicidal ideation reared its head. For the fourth time in a fifteen-month span, it beckoned. This time, I managed to avoid the clique-ishness of the staff at the one hospital and the vulgarity of … Continue reading
Posted in Community, Connection, FTM, Gratititude, Hope, Hope, Mental health, Mental illness, Psych Hospitalization, Suicide, support, UU Fellowship
Tagged #ftm story, #Trans, Community, Self acceptance
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Bewildered?
Writing this in hopes of connecting. My soul’s been on disconnect for much longer than expected. Simple tasks had become behemoth; brushing my teeth, a feat of massive proportions. And I spent another five weeks searching deeper into my head … Continue reading
Posted in Community, Connection, Family, Friendship, Hope, Psych Hospitalization, Reality, sadness, superhero
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Three Strikes?
Headaches, in general, have not been a problem for me. Muscle discomfort. PMS strife. Pain following twelve hour scoliosis surgery. All familiar. The near-migraines ( have experienced those, as well) that have plagued me in the last couple of weeks … Continue reading
Posted in Celebration, Dignity, Friendship, FTM, Hope, Hormone Replacement Therapy, Testosterone, Therapy, Top Surgery
Tagged #acceptance, #ftm story, #who I am, Confidence, Honesty, Peace
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High Road
Can’t say there’s a reason I’d abandoned Sams Space. Possibly because I’d stepped away from me for a while. Ironic, since I returned to cognitive therapy sessions as a precursor to hormone therapy, as requested by my provider of T. … Continue reading
Posted in CBT, Celebration, Community, Dignity, Hormone Replacement Therapy, Lesbian, Mental health, Pride, Testosterone
Tagged Coming out as trans, Honesty, Peace, Respect, Self acceptance, Tight spots
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Baby Bird
Like a little bird. How I see myself these days. In a way, I hope it won’t last because of the vulnerability factor. At the same time, it’s a reminder I have lots of growing ahead. Mental health issues sometimes … Continue reading
Posted in Dignity, Gratititude, Hope, Mental health, Pride, Progression, Psych Hospitalization, PTSD, Therapy
Tagged #God, #love, #who I am, Blessings, FTM
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Weathering the Front
Winds whipped. Gusts beyond 60 miles per hour. Trees– tall, majestic– ripped like carrots from a backyard garden. Frozen tundra came to mind. Spaghetti-strewn wires adorned darkened, bare streets. Teeth chattered. Windows rattled. Ordinarily I’d sleep through it all. Not … Continue reading
Posted in Celebration, Community, Connection, FTM, Hope, Hope, Hormone Replacement Therapy, Mental health, Progression, Reality, Uncategorized
Tagged #acceptance, #creator, #ftm story, #God, #love, #who I am, Community, Connection, Dignity, Honesty, Out of the closet, Self acceptance
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Color Blind
When prompted to write about my favorite color and why I chose that particular color, my inclination was to write about more than one. Not because I was being feisty. To me, there isn’t just one. Like me, there is … Continue reading
Posted in Celebration, Hope, Hormone Replacement Therapy
Tagged #ftm story, #gender identity, Honesty, Peace, PMS, Sea of Colors, Self acceptance
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It Snowed.
Leave it to millions that will chronicle Jonas’ impact… For the past nine months I’ve been focused, in not so much a conscious way, yet not super subconscious either, on my physical self. Take my wrinkles, for example. Many times … Continue reading
Posted in Aging, Celebration, Dignity, Gratititude, Hope, Mental health, Pride, Progression, Reality
Tagged #gender identity, #love, #who I am, Blessings, Dignity, Honesty, Self acceptance
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Trans or Bi Gender
Not certain whether folks will care that I don’t want to be ‘fully’ male. The word bi freaks people out. Or the use of it. Remember the time I attempted to fit into the lesbian community as bisexual in the … Continue reading
Posted in Childhood sexual abuse, Connection, FTM, Hope, Mental health, Sex
Tagged #acceptance, #gender identity, #who I am, Bi-gender, Confidence, Connection, Self acceptance
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Transgender: A Timely Topic
As the New Year begins, I find myself yearning to write. To gather thoughts, ideas, facts and revelations; to jot them down in any form imaginable. Mostly, I write my blog following a meeting of the trans masculine group I’m … Continue reading
Posted in Community, Connection, Friendship, FTM, Hope, New Year, Poetry, Uncategorized, Writing/Groups
Tagged #God, #who I am, Bi-gender, Blessings, Honesty, Self acceptance, Trans masculine
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